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(Date Posted:05/21/2008 11:55 AM)
Well, IDK if I want to continue to TTC anymore or not. I had a chemical miscarriage two days ago, and it has completely destroyed me. I have a follow up appointment I think next week (I can't remember what he said and my release paper is in the Jeep), so I will update you all and let you know how that went. I told Brandon Monday that I had passed a blood clot the size of a medium to large egg, and I felt that I had miscarried, and the color drained from his face and he just looked at me. I got him to take me to the doctor, well ER, last night, and they drew blood to check the hCG levels, said they were still detectable and concluded that I had a chemical misscarriage. I was four weeks exact. I have to go back to see an OBGYN for a blood test for the levels and a scan to see if everything came out, or if, by that very very small chance, I am still pregnant. I passed another clot this morning, but it was only about the size of a gold dollar, and I have passed normal sized ones for me, about the size of dimes or a but smaller, ever since. I know its not my fault and all, but I feel like I have seriously let Brandon down. I mean, I have lost two of his babies in the course of a little over a year. That is horrific for anyone, ya know?
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